I first got in to debt when my financial aid didn’t kick in and was forced not to go to school. My mother didn’t want that, so she paid for my classes in hopes that I would pay her back. I was actually sad that she did so because I didn’t want to owe any one money, but I am grateful. I was a bit happy that there would be a possibility that I would not go to school because that means I can paint and get a break... but no... I’m stressed, tired, owe money from the classes, books, and supplies I put into this school semester. All this in one semester and my debt is going to grow when next semester comes around because I have no financial aid this year. My one goal when I enter college was to not owe any loans; til this day I don’t, but I owe so much money and it's growing.
I don't make a living. I am so busy with school that I can't find a job that would give me flexible hours, and even if I did, I wouldn't be able to maintain the job. I do sometimes help my grandpa, and he would give me a sad pay, but it is something. I try my best to save it, but of course that does not work out because I put it all in the bank to pay them off. I don’t want to be a slave to this anymore.
I am stressed from trying to finish college in hopes that one day I could have time to paint, draw, and just do what I love, but I’m being held back. I took up an art class so that I can paint. Maaan does it feel good, too! But I can't find the time, or money, or motivation to draw, or paint, or anything. The thought of oweing money kills me because I only hope I could pay it back before it gets worse. I want to express myself or take a break, but every minute is important.